hi.

I went for a jog + long walk in the evening ...
Didn't help things get better, but I love the sun on my skin [:

I had a longgggg talk w my mom over dinner, which was very nice (:
We started off on some topic about black magic, which led t how her sister's life is full of drama, which led t me asking her whether she had drama in her life, which led to her telling me about her ex boyfriends & cute love stories, which led t me telling her about N, K & J, which led to her telling me that she doesn't really fancy bungs who poke here poke there on their faces (aka piercings) because she likes "clean cut bungs", which led t me telling her about xxx & that I should let her see xxx sometime ..., & then we talked about relationships and emptiness, and marriage and regrets. And whether my father would one day finally accept me for who I am... if he finds out. And when we reached home the topic switched t something about ghosts & 7th month ...

I really like that I can talk to my mom about ALMOST everything ... but I get really zzzzz when she asks me about lesbian sex & HIV (wtf) , a topic which I would strongly avoid & say i don't really know how it works ... I feel like I just poured everything out & I feel very happy that I can share stuff w my mom (:

& I'm also very happy that I finally found someone who is quite alike w me (not my mom) ... (: (: someone who knows how I feel because she feels the same way about things, every sentence she says is totally SPOT ON abt how I feel. & that is enough for me. (: finally, someone who understands me (: