Lately I've been wondering a lot, what t do w my sad life, omg I am just so damn sick of studying already, sick of weekends being packed w tuition and when i'm not doing anything i feel so uneasy like i should actually do something because i need t be productive or i will feel so useless but you know sometimes people just feel so lazy and don't wanna do anything and don't wish to do anything and they just want t go far away and distance themselves from the entire world so they can be at peace and maybe, happy. And no, i've not decided what t do w my life, i am not panicking even though there're very impt exams after the June hols that I havent studied for, and i'm not panicking although bio tuition is in 2 hrs and there is a slight chance that the tuition teacher might come earlier and the fact that i'm supposed t study photosynthesis and draw fucking translation diagrams. And i'm just living each day as it is, no improvements whatsoever, just jumping at opportunities or regretting not jumping at it. Sometimes when I listen t Love Story it reminds me of times when I'll plug my ipod w Love Story on repeat on my entire journey travelling down t eHub Gelare on Bus 89, and knitting and thinking abt the future of us, & even thinking of remaking the song into our very own unique wedding video directed by yours truly and giving you a surprise on our wedding, but of course, that wedding is but a dream now. Sometimes I listen t Thinking of You & I think of the whole issue 2 mths back and I wonder how I even got here today. Why & How & What-if & Screw-it. I'm a dreamer. I'm tired of routine but afraid of change.