Which I cannot say here.

It may be miscommunication, or whatever... 

Seriously... walao eh. Birthdays only come once in a year okay? 

I won't usually get pissed more than a day. 

So last night after I called A to whine & complain, I got over it after I put down the phone. But if I am reminded of why I'm pissed again + there's someone who is willing t hear me whine, then the whole cycle will repeat. hah.

Secondly ...

I knw people around me/people who dont even fucking KNOW me are talking behind my back.

Even if J didn't let me read that post & find out that her friends are calling me a flirt who just likes to have love & fun, (seriously, who doesnt like t have love & fun) I kinda expected it t come already. And I also know they aren't the only ones talking. & K also warned me before that my actions portray me in a v. bad light. Yes, it does affect me a little tiny bit. As usual, I get over it in a minute, & I don't give a damn what they say anymore. What is life with restrictions? I hate to be restricted although I know there's boundaries & lines that aren't supposed t be crossed. Yes, so what if I like to have fun? I'm sorry that you are not having fun when I'm having fun. GET OVER IT.

Thirdly ... 

I'm really sorry to you.

Sorry that you have t put up w all my nonsense.

Everyone around me usually have t put up my nonsense.

& I have no idea how you can still love me unconditionally, & for who I am.

I can never understand how you fell so deep, ... love does weird things.

And I'm sorry that I didn't know how much my words & actions, -no matter how insignificant it may be, or whether it was just a passing remark- could mean so much to you, or even hurt you.

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