I'm sorry. I knw you're disappointed in me. 

We've been through 9mths, & we've been through highs & lows.

You love me more than I love you, & that also means you'll end up getting more hurt. & I knw how much of an emotional brat you are. 

As much as I'd like to be there for you, to hug you tight & tell you everything will be alright, I dont think you'd want to see me either. 

I knw my actions are selfish & I can't expect you to wait for a mth just t see how things will turn out. I just need more time :(

You;

How can I not be impulsive abt my decisions when both of us are 

uncertain abt whether you're leaving for Aus or not? 

Time is ticking fast away, & every single second I am afraid of losing you.

Isnt this a tragic love story? I feel so torn up inside.

It's too much all at once. 

My head & heart are jumbled up. 

I can't find enough courage to choose.